Have you ever had one of those days, where you wake up feeling like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders? Your eyes are puffy, because you didn’t get any sleep the night before. Your neck an shoulders hurt, because you are holding so much tension in your body. And then you realize it’s a Monday – isn’t that just the cherry on top.
I definitely had one of those days today. Here in Minnesota, we woke up with about 6 inches of snow on the ground, and the wind chill at about – 12. It is cold! To be completely honest, I didn’t put much effort into getting ready this morning. Wrapped my hair in a quick bun, threw on some leggings and a skirt, with a warm sweater, and I was ready to go. As I sat in my car this morning, waiting for my car to warm up – my mind wandered to a difficult conversation I had last night. That’s something for me to share with you all another time .. Anyways, I had so many things going through my mind – What is my future going to look like? Is everything going to pan out the way I want it to? Am I going to be a failure? And the most important question I asked myself – why in the world is it so cold?
I tried to snap out of that thinking, as I drove to work – but my mind was consumed with worry, fear, and anxiety. I was also a little upset, today was my first day in my brand new position at work, and I was supposed to be happy! I was supposed to wake up joyful, with a smile on my face, and be ready to conquer the world – but I wasn’t.
Now, I am the kind of person that knows a job has to get done, and I will do anything to make sure it gets done. So I was able to push through my thinking, and get my projects done at work today. However, I got back in my car to head back home – and it all came back.
I had to stop, take a deep breath, and say a prayer. I turned our local Christian radio station on, and the song “Reckless Love” by Corey Asbury was playing ..
“When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me
You have been so, so good to me
When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me
You have been so, so kind to me
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine
I couldn’t earn it, and I don’t deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah
There’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up
Coming after me
There’s no wall You won’t kick down
Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after me“
I was quickly reminded, my God has been so good to me. It doesn’t matter what I have done, He’s still coming after me. Even when I doubt, He still loves me, and He is coming after me. I really don’t deserve it, but His love still reaches in my darkest hours.
I am a Christian, and I have faith – but I am also a human, and I make mistakes. My mind still takes over me sometimes.
I am prone to doubt, fear, and worry …but God still reaches for me.
I felt led to share this today, and I hope this can help someone. Please know, that God loves you – no matter what! His love reaches further than you could ever imagine.
As I sit here writing this, tears come to my eyes; because He’s proven to me time and time again that He will always be there, and I will never be alone. I pray you will be able to take this to heart, along with the scriptures below, and begin to feel God’s love.
“So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.” Deuteronomy 31:6
“What shall we say about such wonderful things as these? If God is for us, who can ever be against us? Since he did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won’t he also give us everything else? Who dares accuse us whom God has chosen for his own? No one—for God himself has given us right standing with himself. Who then will condemn us? No one—for Christ Jesus died for us and was raised to life for us, and he is sitting in the place of honor at God’s right hand, pleading for us. Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? (As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”) No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us. And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love.”
“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
God’s got you – You can do this!